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Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
9:51 pm	ha, I LIVE!! ya, being grounded sucks.... so... QUESTIONAIRE TIME!! My name: Who is the love of my life: Where did we meet: Take a stab at my middle name: How long have you known me: When is the last time that we saw each other: Do I smoke: what about weed: Do I drink: beer or liquor: When is my birthday: What was your first impression of upon meeting me: Do I have any siblings: What's one of my favorite things to do: Am I funny: What's my favorite type of music: What is the best feature about me: Am I shy or outgoing: Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules: Do I have any special talents: How much of a friend do you consider me: Would you call me average, sporty, punk, hippie, nerdy, country, snobby, emo, rockabilly or something else (what): What is a memory we have once had: Have you ever hugged me: Do you miss me...do you think i miss you: What is my favorite food: Would I consider having a romantic relationship with you: Have I ever been heartbroken: Would I risk my life for you, would you do the same for me: If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be: What's your favorite memory of me: Who do I like right now: What is my worst habit: If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would you have for us: How close do you consider us to be: Will you repost this so I can do it for you: ya, interesting eh? no time for normalities. goodnight all, cya at school Current Mood: pretty normal Current Music: nothin right now (4 added to the heavens |add stars)
Monday, February 6th, 2006
10:23 pm	denied Wow, I have left this thing for a bit too long. I was reminded by Erika to write in it so she could read something. Stalker... Anyways, I feel like crap. I don't have a serious disease or something, but I do feel miserable. I think it's sinuses, but hey what do I know? Ok, the coolest thing on Diablo 2 has to be... THE HIDDEN COW LEVEL!!! OMG! Cows get up on their hind legs and cary around pikes to kill you. AND THEY SPEAK TOO!! Only saying moo... BUT THEY YELL IT IN DIFFERENT TONES! Like if you hit one he yells MOOO! If you kill one he has a blood-curdling MOOOOOOO!!!!!!! But if they are chasing you around you hear Moo Moo Moo, Moo Moo. It's the funniest thing you will ever see. And they are tough! Those things can slaughter you. THEY HAVE A COW KING!! He is all electrified. I had every cow in the level following me around, and then had them all slaughtered by some random level 97. It was the funniest sight I had ever seen. That's a lot of dead cows. By the way, I'm a level 36 and need 1 more level before I can use this uber stuff that some guy gave me. That's all for the game section of my LJ. I started listening to RatherGood.com music again. I love that stuff. GIRL, I WANT TO TAKE YOU TO A GAY BAR! And if you go there, you have to go to Badgerbadgerbadger.com To listen to the best song in existance. Omg it's been so long since I've seen these. I'm going to do this every day now, it always seems to put a smile on my face. OMG SALAD FINGERS! If I sound like I'm in a better mood, it's because I am. Things may not be working out for me, but they are becoming more and more clear. Such as my father, I'm better off without him around here. Among other things... Anyways, hopefully my problems will be crystal by the end of the week. Ok, I have to let you see the lyrics to this. This is called, We Like the Moon. If you guys have ever seen the Quiznos Subs commercial with the rats singing, WE LIKE QUIZNOS SUBS! then this will be somewhat familiar to you. It's the same 'rats'. We like the moon Cause it is close to us WE LIKE THE MOON But not as much as a spoon Cause they for use for eating soup And a fork is not very useful for that Unless you has got many vegetables But then you might be better off with a CHOPSTICK Unlike the moon It is up in the sky It is up very high But not as high as maybe Derrigibals or zeppalins or lightbulbs And maybe clouds And also puffins I think they go quite high too Maybe not as high as the moon Cause the moon is very high We like the moon The moon is very useful everyone We like the moon cause it lights up the sky at night and it lovely And it makes the tides go up we like it But not as much as cheese We really like cheese we like zeppalins We really like them And we like elk And we like moose And we like deer And we like marmots And all the fluffy animals WE REALLY LIKE THE MOON   OMG THAT IS SO FUNNY! I have it on my mp3 player if anyone ever wants to hear it, among other Rathergood.com songs. Goodnight everyone, hope all your problems are solved. Current Mood: lol Current Music: YOUR MOMS YOUR DAD! (6 added to the heavens |add stars)
Sunday, January 29th, 2006
9:00 pm	The only thing that can describe my mood, wtf... Today feels like Saturday, WELL IT'S NOT. It's freakin Sunday. Only a couple of hours before I attempt sleep, and get up at 5:30 in the morning thinking 'Another day to doze off and do nothing.' But then am reminded it's Monday and I must get ready for school. I hate school. First block is 96 minutes of boring nothingness. Second block is 96 minutes of physical activity with Melanie, the only person I will willingly talk to. Third block has Sam, Lacie, and Kris, but the teacher is a freakin air head and gives too much work AND I SIT IN THE FRONT! FOURTH BLOCK IS THE WORST! The damn woman can't keep me awake. I sit by none of my friends. I sit in the back, which might sound good, but I'm right up against her desk. So when she tries to walk by, her ass is hitting the back of my head. OMFG. I have no classes with Kenzi, and have only half of lunch with her. After school is taken up by soccer, 4 out of 7 days a week... I never get to see Kenzi. I hate it, but our combined schedules leave very little time with each other. I'm sorry it never works out Kenzi. My family has finally fallen apart. I think I'm the only sane one here, and that's saying something. My dad is gone for good, and I don't expect to ever see him again. I'm not saying anything more... Kenzi, I didn't invite Erika. She was here when I was at your house, and while you went to your dad's. I can't think straight. I need some time to think stuff through. I would have time tonight, but I have a FREAKIN AR DEADLINE COMING UP AND HAVE TO READ THIS DAMN BOOK BY FRIDAY. My 'book' has officially been halted. I can't write anymore. Nothing works the way it did. I need a job, I don't have enough money for anything. If someone has a birthday I'm screwed. If Valentine's day comes around and I'm still in this situation, I'm screwed. Either way, I have no money to spend on myself. Nothing is working out for me, and I have no control over it. This has to be the worst feeling I have ever experienced. I don't believe this. I was trimming my beard, and part of my shaver popped off and left a bald spot on my chin. I just had to shave it off. Damnit. Thanks for reading all my complaints, lately that's all that seems to pop up on my journal. Sorry. Goodnight Current Mood: gloomy (2 added to the heavens |add stars)
Saturday, January 28th, 2006
11:15 pm	So trippy... Pink Floyd has to be some of the weirdest music I have ever listened to, but I love it. I'm listening to a song called The Trial on the cd The Wall. It reminds me of the trial in Alice in Wonderland. So trippy. Kenzi's party was fun. At about 10, I began to suffer. I have severe cat allergies, and she has a cat. I don't think it was caused directly by the cat, but by the couch I was sitting on, and by being around Kenzi who had held the cat. Before the party I went and bought her roses. I went for a nice single or double, but they were out... SO, I ended up buying about 10-12 for her and that took up a lovely little chunk of cash. It was worth it, she loves'em. I officially own a car. Actually it's a truck. Actually it doesn't work.... The transimission is worthless on it. My dad and I were supposed to try and fix it... Well, that ain't happening. Don't ask. Mmmm. Cheez-its and Mello Yello. I filled up my mp3 player. It just denied me when I tried to put more music on it. It currently is holding 123 songs. Something has got to go. Level 32 barbarian on Diablo 2 Now I am listening to Comfortably Numb... Wow, dang druggies. lol. I looked like a stoner last night, and Ash has pictures. This ought to be good. I tried to look at myself in the mirror, but couldn't see, therefore my eyes must have looked terrible. Shifting back to the topic of Diablo, would you be willing to pay real money for an item on a game? COME ON! What kind of idiot does something like that. There is a site, D2legit.com, where you can buy anything on Diablo. They are charging 75$ for an armor that belongs to an angel. OMFG 75 real American dollars. TARDS I'm going to start wearing a necklace to school. Erika came over for a little while. She hung out with my sister most of the time. We didn't do anything, promise! I got her to watch Alien 3. How can you not like those movies? She liked it. Ok, I am being kicked off the computer, so no time for lyrics. I'll leave some tomorrow, or something. Goodnight everyone, hope all your problems are solved. Current Mood: so so Current Music: The Trial//Pink Floyd (8 added to the heavens |add stars)
Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
8:27 pm	People are going to have to quit this crap Why do I bother putting anything personal about myself on my LJ? Whenever someone learns something about my life, it ends up being bad. Zach kept asking me about the questions I had posted up, such as who I had loved, who I had missed, and if I still liked Erika. I answered none of them, and told him I wasn't. But he kept on. Then he asked why I was going out with Kenzi. He said I should break up with her and just go out on dates with Kenzi and Erika. That was all I was going to take from that ass hole. The last time I lost my temper was with Josh Evans, and now we completely hate each other. I lost my temper with Zach and luckily for him, Kenzi told me he hadn't meant it the way he had said it, and that she was the one wondering if I still liked Erika. So Zach and I appologized to each other and went on. David Gafford... ASS HOLE. I don't mind him flirting with any other girl, but if he does with Kenzi one more time, I won't hesitate to kick his ass and put him in his place. If Kenzi complains about someone flirting with her, then you know it's gone too far. Ok, I just blocked Zach. He was messing with me for what I had said about David and him. I guess this warning is going to be going to Zach and David. Ugh, enough about fights, I hate'em. Happy Birthday Kenzi! I need newer music, I'm tired of listening to the same thing over and over again. I get somewhat sick of it. Soccer practice is annoying, it takes up way too much time on my schedule. Zach wants to fight me... I threatened to kick his ass, and he says he isn't afraid. He's going to regret that. It's going to be an interesting day tomorrow. If I get into two or more fights tomorrow, I won't be suprised, and I won't be suprised if I win all of them. How is this going to look on my 'spotless' record? I've only gotten in trouble when I was in one fight, and it was just a warning. All this because I gave out a little personal information... see if this ever happens again. Alright, I'm done here. No more personal stuff, who knows what it might cause. I leave you with a Megadeth song called Of Mice and Men. The fire burns on and on That drives me on till all is gone Except the simple plans Of mice and men Back when I was just seventeen I thought that I knew everything I could make it in this scene To be a rising star that only gleamed But all the answers disagreed With the questions held for me I was legal now at twenty-one I knew the world should run My God just look what I had done Simply drunk and having fun Looked for friends, but I found none All alone at twenty-one The fire burns on and on That drives me on till all is gone Except the simple plans Of mice and men At twenty-five I was surprised That I was even half-alive Somehow I managed to survive I felt my body doing time And in my back a hundred knives From my friends at twenty-five And now as Gabriel sounds my warning bell I'd buy your life, if you would sell A year or two if less compelled So live your life and live it well There's not much left of me to tell I just got back up each time I fell The fire burns on and on That drives me on till all is gone Except the simple plans Of mice and men The fire burns on and on That drives me on till all is gone Except the simple plans Of mice and men Alright, I'm out. I've got some stuff to do, and to think about. So hope all your problems are solved, and wish me luck for tomorrow... Current Mood: pissed Current Music: Of Mice and Men//Megadeth (1 added to the heavens |add stars)
Monday, January 23rd, 2006
7:58 pm	more of the same stuff These things are kind of fun, hmm... I gots some interesting answers too. lol. 1. What is your middle name? Eric 2. Last person you kissed? Kenzi 3. What are you listening to right now? System of a Down/Chop Suey! 4. what are the last 2 digits in your phone number? 92 5. What was the last thing you ate? food 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be and why? blue, fav color and everyone uses blue a lot 7. How is the weather right now? rainy 8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Erika 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex? Eyes. Then hair. 10 favorite type of Food? cheez-its. 11. Do you drink? lol, no... 12. Do you smoke? nope? 13. Ever get so drunk you dont remember what you did? see answer #11 (NO) 14. Hair color? Brown 15. Eye color? brown again... 16. Do you wear contacts? nope 17. Favorite Holiday? valentine's day 18. What something you hate about yourself? overly confident. 19. Have you ever cried for no reason? nope, always for a reason.... 20. Last Movie you Watched? Serenity 21. Is there something that you regret doing at this moment? nothing im going to type. 22. Are you too shy to ask someone one out? no, but I like to get to know them, therefore people think I am. 23. If you can say something to someone right now what would it be? sorry... 24. Hugs or Kisses? ouch, you can't really have a bad hug, so I'm sticking with the hugs. 25. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla, chocolate is the anti-christ 26. Do you want your friends to respond? only if they want to. 27. Who is most likely to respond? hell if I know. 28. Who is least likely to respond? someone who doesnt know me?. 29. What books are you reading? The Wave, omg it sucks 30. Piercings? wouldn't you like to know, jking none 31. Favorite movie? Alien! 32. favorite basketball team? BASKETBALL SUCKS! 33. what are you doing? talking on the phone and writing this 34. Any pets? dogs, and a salamander 35. AIM? TadtheEricKopp 36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Butter and a little salt 37. Cats or Dogs? cats 38. Favorite Flower? flowers are smelly :-( 39.Have you ever been caught doing something you werent supposed to? Yes... 41.Have you ever loved somone? maybe, yes.... 43.Are you still friends with your ex's? some 44. Have you ever fired a gun? Yes 45. Do you like to travel by plane? kind of boring 46. Right-handed or Left-handed?: Right. 47. If you can be with someone right now, who would it be? I'd like to be with Kenzi more often than I have been 48. How many pillows do you sleep with? 7, don't make fun of me, they are comfy 49.Do you have a tatoo? YES, maybe, no... 50. Can you see your self married? sure [ ] I am shorter than 5'4. [X] I think I'm ugly sometimes. [X] I have many scars. [X] I tan easily. [ ] I wish my hair was a different color. [ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. [ ] I have a tattoo. [X] I am self-conscious about my appearance. [ ] I have/I've had braces. [ ] I wear glasses. [ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free. [X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. [ ] I have more than 2 piercings. [ ] I have(had and gettin it again) piercings in places besides my ears. [ ] I have orange freckles. Family/Home Life [ ] I've sworn at my parents. [ ] I've ran away from home. [ ] I've been kicked out of the house [ ] My biological parents are together. [ ] I have a sibling less than one year old. [X] I want to have kids someday. [ ] I've had children. [ ] I've lost a child. School/Work [X] I'm in school. [ ] I have a job. [X] I've fallen asleep at work/school. [ ] I almost always do my homework. [ ] I've missed a week or more of school. [ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. [ ] I failed more than 1 class last year. [ ] I've stolen something from my job [ ] I've been fired. [ ] I've skipped school. Embarrasment [ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. [ ] Disney movies still make me cry. [ ] I've peed from laughing. [ ]I've snorted while laughing. [X] I've laughed so hard I've cried. [X] I've glued my hand to something [ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose. [ ] I've had my pants rip in public Health [ ] I was born with a disease/impairment [ ]I've gotten stitches. [X] I've broken a bone. [X] I've fractured a bone. [ ] I've had my tonsils removed. [X] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend. [X] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. [ ] I had a serious surgery. [X] I've had chicken pox. Traveling [X] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. [X] I've been on a plane. [ ] I've been to Canada. [ ] I've been to Mexico. [ ] I've been to Niagara Falls. [ ] I've been to Japan. [ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. [ ] I've been to Europe. [ ] I've been to Africa. Experiences [ ] I've gotten lost in my city. [X] I've seen a shooting star. [ ] I've wished on a shooting star. [X] I've seen a meteor shower. [ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (Do it all the time) [X] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator [X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. [ ] I've been to a casino. [ ] I've been skydiving. [ ] I've gone skinny dipping. [X] I've played spin the bottle. [ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. [ ] I've crashed a car. [ ] I've been Skiing [X] I've been in a play. [X] I've met someone in person from the internet. [X] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue. [X] I've seen the Northern Lights. [X] I've sat on a roof top at night. [X] I've played chicken. [X] I've played a prank on someone. [ ] I've ridden in a taxi. [ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. [ ] I've eaten Sushi. [ ] I've been snowboarding. Relationships [ ] I'm single [X] I'm in a relationship. [ ] I'm engaged. [ ] I'm married. [X] I've gone on a blind date. [X] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper. [X] I miss someone right now. [X] I have a fear of abandonment. [ ] I've cheated in a relationship. [ ] I've gotten divorced [X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. [ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. [X] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did. [X] I've kept something from a past relationship. Sexuality [ ] I have a crush on someone of the same sex. [ ] I have a crush on a teacher. [X] I am a cuddler. [X] I've been kissed in the rain. [X] I've hugged a stranger. [X] I have kissed a stranger. Honesty/Crime [X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't. [X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't. [X] I've snuck out of my house. [X] I have lied to my parents about where I am. [X] I am keeping a secret from the world. [X] I've cheated while playing a game. [X] I've cheated on a test. [ ] I've run a red light. [ ] I've been suspended from school. [X] I've witnessed a crime. [X] I've been in a fist fight. [ ] I've been arrested. [ ] I've shoplifted. Drugs/Alcohol [X] I've consumed alcohol. [ ] I regularly drink. [ ] I've passed out from drinking. [ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months. [ ] I've smoked weed [ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them. [ ] I've eaten shrooms. [ ] I've popped E. [ ] I've inhaled Nitrous. [ ] I've done hard drugs. [ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. [ ] I can't swallow pills [ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem [ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. [X] I shut others out when I'm depressed. [ ] I take anti-depressants. [ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic. [X] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. [ ] I'm addicted to self harm. [X] I've woken up crying. Death and Suicide [ ] I'm afraid of dying. [ ] I hate funerals. [X] I've seen someone dying. [X] Someone close to me has attempted suicide. [X] Someone close to me has committed suicide. [X] I've planned my own suicide. [ ] I've attempted suicide [ ] I've written a eulogy for myself. Materialism [ ] I own over 5 rap CDs [X] I own an iPod or MP3 player. [ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. [ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece. [X] I own something from Hot Topic. [ ] I own something from Pac Sun. [ ] I collect comic books. [ ] I own something from The Gap. [X] I own something I got on e-bay. [ ] I own something from Abercrombie. Political/Social Attitudes [ ] In general, I don't like people. [ ] I'm a feminist. [X] I'm outgoing. [X] I listen to political music. [ ] I'm Democratic [X] I'm Republican. [ ] I'm liberal. [X] I'm religious. [ ] I dress fairly modestly. [ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it." Random [ ] I can sing well. [ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. [X] I open up to others easily. [X] I watch the news. [X] I don't kill bugs. [X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. [ ] I curse regularly. [ ] I sing in the shower. [ ] I am a morning person. [ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. [X] I'm a snob about grammar. [ ] I am a sports fanatic. [ ] I twirl my hair [ ] I have "x"s in my screen name. [X] I love being neat. [ ] I love Spam [ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day [ ] I bake well. [X] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue [ ] I would wear pajamas to school. [ ] I like Martha Stewart. [X] I know how to shoot a gun. [X] I am in love with love. [ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. [X] I laugh at my own jokes. [X] I eat fast food weekly. [X] I believe in ghosts. [ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. [X] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. [ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. [X] I am really ticklish. [ ] I love white chocolate (CHOCOLATE IS THE ANTI-CHRIST) [ ] I bite my nails [X] I play video games. [X] I'm good at remembering faces. [X] I'm good at remembering names [ ] I'm good at remembering dates. [ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. [X] My answers are totally honest. that's a lot of stuff. lol. (add stars)
Saturday, January 21st, 2006
10:53 pm	HA, this is funny 1. Money: STOP TAUNTING ME! 2. Sex: Sexiest man alive or dead 3. Relationships: That Kenzi chick we all know 4. Your Last Ex: What about her? 5. Power: There is no knowledge that is not power 6. Marijuana: pot? 7. Crack: rectum 8. Food: Hungry 9. The President: Dumbass 10. War: bombs 11. Car: I have no car... 12. Gas prices: WTF?! 13. Oral Sex: WHAT WHAT!? 14. Politics: SUCK 15. Religion: SMITE ME OH MIGHTY SMITER (Bruce Almighty) 16. Plastic: spork 17. MySpace: HELL 18. Worst Fear: No friends 19. Marriage: Aren't I too young for that? 20. Fashion: See question #2 21. Brunettes: Love'em 22. Redheads: ugh... 23: Work: Unemployed 24: Pass the time: music 24: Football: soccer? 25. One night stands: losers 26: Pet Peeve: stupidity 27: Pixie Stix: colored sugar 28: Vanilla Ice: ICE ICE BABY 29: Porta Potties: *pukes uncontrollably* 30: High school: ANOTHER HELL! 31: Bad Sex: Define bad sex 32. Pajamas: boxers 33. Wood: I am the sumo florist, always have a woody! 34. Surfers: hippies 35. Pictures: of? 36. Emo: I laugh at them! not really... wow, that was funny. Current Mood: *yawn* Current Music: nothing (add stars)
2:39 pm	boring weekend... It's going to be a boring weekend, I think so anyways. I get to go to the mall tomorrow, I need to get Kenzi's birthday present. I have a couple things in mind, but I'd have to stop in Athens too. I always end up poor after a girlfriend's birthday. I need a couple things myself, so this is a plus. Hopefully I won't run out of cash before I have a chance to spend on myself. I'm watching the New Guy. This movie is so retarded, but crazy eyes is hilarious. I'm a level 30 on Diablo now. It takes a lot longer to level up if you aren't on hardcore, but I don't want to risk dying again. I made friends with a level 87 sorceress, she rocks. She's helping me get through the game pretty fast, and giving me uber weapons of mass destruction! lol. Thank God for Cheez-itz. When you don't know how to cook anything, don't feel like making a sandwitch, and are too lazy to reheat something, Cheez-itz and a Mello Yello are life savers. Mmmm Cheezy... lol. I currently have 115 songs on my mp3 player and have room for about 35 more. I love this thing. Why are girlfriend's so expensive!? lol. I was told I just spend too much on them, but I feel if I have the money and want to, why shouldn't I? Zach lives! He didn't commit suicide, which I suppose is a plus. If he did, I would blame Kenzi and she would blame me. lol. Low-level duels- rules: 9-30 Low/Mid-level duels- rules: 25-50 Mid/High-level duels- rules: 45-75 High-level duels- rules: 70-99 WTF IS A LEVEL 92 DOING IN LOW-LEVEL DUELS!? WTF IS A LEVEL 92 DOING IN NORMAL DIFFICULTY AND NOT IN HELL DIFFICULTY!? OMG, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO EVEN TOUCH HIM?! WHAT AN ASS! Sorry, I find it completely retarded that some guy has to show off the fact he is a higher level by picking on a low level character. I am the complete opposite, I join these games to help the lower levels by giving them free high level stuff. That's the nice thing to do, not to go and kill everyone you see. Still have insomnia, only got 2 hours of sleep last night. I stayed up until 2 talking to Erika on the phone, she is the only person I know who doesn't have a curfue like that. Even I have a curfue for the phone, but what my mom or dad doesn't know won't kill them. I hope. The only plus of insomnia is the fact I get to stay up and think about all my little problems. There are a lot. No, I'm not discussing any of them here. I have a slight problem with my right leg. I tied my cleats on too tight, and my ankle didn't take it too well. It's been hurting a lot, and I can't walk on it without a sharp pain shooting through it. It hurts so bad, it causes my leg to buckle. So I am forced to limp heavily, or hop on my left leg, which is completely unhurt. Soccer practice is going to suck big. Alright people, I shall leave you now. I am off to listen to music while I attempt to sleep. I leave you with the normal currently listening to lyrics. This has very deep meaning in it, but it has nothing to do with my situation. I'm not trying to tell you people anything, it's just a really good song with awesome lyrics. Megadeth/Something I'm not. Your mind tells you that you've lost your confidence You're drifting and ya don't believe in anyone To lose what little you have left to be proud of Afraid you can't do this again, ah! You said that nothing can come in-between us The way of getting things we wanted done Then enissophobia held you under its influence Until you compromised your style Everything about you has been one big charade What will you do now the wells run dry? Cry? To sell out all your friends and stab them in the back Its something that you are; something that I'm not When you forced me into doing what you love Mark my words no one loves you very much, yeah mark em And when you tried to change me and tried to replace me I couldn't help but end just hating you, hmm! Being a fraud can only last so long, you should know Till what ya sensed as a child returns, you little baby To choke out the voice that told ya "money and fame" Would fill the crater that you dug for yourself Unlike you I'm no vision to myself, lest you forget You didn't ever make metal, buddy; metal made you To crush and run over everyone along the way It's something that you are; its something that I'm not A stranger to yourself, ha! Ya pissed me off again I won't be driven by your needs anymore What you'd become to do or be is clear to see for me It's something that you are; its something that I'm not it makes me sick to hear you say you "love me" I know you only love what I can do for you If you were the one that was leading the charge Would you notice if I missed a day or two? But that's impossible! We all laughed at the parodies that you'd become Now your pain slowly paid back has begun So, accept my resignation, or in your words "betrayal" Before it gets much worse, end this self-sabotage Something I'm not, something that you are, something that I'm not Something I'm not, something that you are, something that I'm not Something that you are, something that I'm not, yet It's on their newest album, The System has failed, which I didn't like much at first, but now I love. Alright, talk to you all later, hope you have a good weekend and that all your problems are solved. Current Mood: ugh Current Music: Megadeth/Something I'm Not (1 added to the heavens |add stars)
Monday, January 16th, 2006
12:51 pm	its too early for this crap... Still have insomnia... Ah well, it gives me time to do stuff I usually don't want to do. I am home alone, my mom and sister are at work. I decided to be lazy and not go. The owner said she would pay me to work there today, but I'm just not in the mood to be watering plants.... lol. Cheez-its are good. I ALMOST HAD TO COOK THIS MORNING! We had nothing in the fridge to make, it was all expired. No bread, which is weird. All we had was some hash-browns. They are good, and I was like, can I microwave'em? Hell no you can't microwave them, it requires you to fry them.... MOTHER F%$#@*! I finally found some oatmeal... I REFUSED AND GRABBED CHEEZ-ITS. True lifesavers. lol. I'm watching the movie Aliens, it's the sequal to the movie Alien (singular) lol. These were the first movies to actually scare me. I'm watching the hero chick blow up the queen alien with a machine gun duct taped to a flamethrower lol, resourceful. Good movies, the third is the scariest. My Diablo 2 character is level 25 and in Act 3. I'm a bit behind for what level I am. I should be in Act 4 by now. I'm supposed to kill Mephisto, the lord of hatred, in this act. Act 1 was Andariel, the maiden of anguish. Act 2 was Duriel, the prince of pain. Act 4 is killing Diablo, the lord of terror. And Act 5 is killing Baal, the lord of destruction. I hosted a game yesterday called low level duels. Characters duel each other in a friendly way, meaning no lost money, and usually no killing. Well some level 90 ass hole joined in. He says, I'm not that good, you can beat me. BULL SHIT. A LEVEL 30 OR BELOW CAN'T EVEN TOUCH A LEVEL 90 WITHOUT DYING! And there is no ban feature, so he stayed. What kind of ass hole stays in the easiest difficulty until he's a level 90, omg... We have nothing to drink here either... My mom needs to go to the grocery store. lol. Well, I'll probably update again tonight. I really have nothing better to do now. Cya guys Current Mood: that icon doesn't look bored Current Music: nothing (add stars)
Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
11:03 pm	damnit... insomnia has finally taken over... this week i've gotten 8 hours of sleep altogether... this really sucks. Current Mood: ugh Current Music: nothing... (add stars)
Monday, January 9th, 2006
6:26 pm	ADVENT CHILDREN SEPHIROTH IS A COMPLETE BADASS! The other characters are awesome, BUT SEPHIROTH IS A BADASS. I thought for a while he wasn't actually going to come back, and that his 'clones' were just going to kick Cloud's ass, BUT HE DOES COME BACK AND KICKS CLOUD'S ASS! For those of you who don't want anything spoiled, don't read this. For those of you interested in what I'm actually talking about, read on, I'll try and keep it interesting. The whole movie is based on events after Final Fantasy 7, one of the greatest games I have ever played lol. FF7 is about a mercenary named Cloud trying to uncover his past and save the world from the planet-destroying company, Shinra, and the badass mentioned above, SEPHIROTH! As you go through the game you meet people who help you on your quest. Guess what, Cloud had a little woman problem like someone else you people know... Tifa, and Aerith (or Aeris). Well later in the game that doesn't matter, cause Sephiroth puts his sword right through Aerith. There are people who actually cry about that, and I am proud to say, I wasn't one of them! But it did make me feel sick to my stomach... Well, now all attention is turned towards Sephiroth who is going to destroy the world through the use of a meteor. Aerith was killed trying to stop meteor with a little spell called Holy. Sephiroth is in a crater at the north pole of the world, the crater was caused by his 'genetic mother' Jenova. Shinra trained huge armies of people, and the elite of these, were SOLDIER. SOLDIER had Jenova cells put in them to make them even stronger. Well, in then end you go down the crater and kill Jenova and Sephiroth. That was an EXTREME summary, there is so much more, but it's way too much to type. Well, the movie goes on 2 years after Sephiroth is defeated, and it starts off telling about a virus called the planet scar virus. It seems to only infect kids, but it has infected Cloud too. You meet the 'clones' of Sephiroth early in the movie. They are: Kadaj the leader, Yazoo the gunman, and Loz the brute. Kadaj looks like a younger Sephiroth. Lot's of cool fights, and the people doing Matrix stuff. Cloud is awesome and can take on just about anyone, but when Sephiroth shows up, he quickly changed that. Sephiroth is such a badass, and as soon as he shows up, it starts playing One Winged Angel. Not just any One Winged Angel, a revamped heavy metal version. They start fighting with their swords. Cloud's sword is this seven foot gargantuan, Sephiroth's is a ten foot version of my 'Horse Killer' called Masamune. Masamune = Uber pwnage. Cloud weilds his like a stick, but Sephiroth's is even faster. There is no way to describe the battle besides, Sephiroth kicked Cloud's ass. You have to see it to understand just how awesome it is. By the way, I plan on buying it when I find it. The only bad thing about the movie is how short it is, but it makes up for that with bonus stuff. All the good cutscenes from the game, including my favorite which was Sephiroth walking through flames. Ok something other than FF now. Tomorrow after school I have to go back to the dentist to see how my jaw is doing so far. This whole thing sucked. Some of you may know, I've been writing my 'book' for a little while. I'm on chapter 7 and working my way up the first real battle. I don't even have a title for the book yet. If anyone wants any info, or wants to read what I have so far, ask and I'll send it. I bought Diablo 2 a little while ago. In one night I managed to get to level 10. That's not too bad. I have a barbarian. I started to make a hardcore character, but he died at 11 cause some ass hole decided he didn't like me. The guy was a level 20, and I should have just left then. If you know me well enough, I'm too hard headed to just quit. I tried to fight. I got my ass handed to me. It sucked. So I decided, Battle.net is full of too many ass holes to play hardcore and live, I'm sticking with normal. I made a couple friends fast, and we completed Act 1 which is cool. I also bought 2 movies. Both of which are part of the Alien series. These movies used to scare the hell out of me, and the 3rd and 1st one still do. the 2nd one is about a battalion of marines trying to destroy a whole hive of them. 1 and 3 are about a single one doing all the damage. There are 2 others, which really kind of sucked. Alien Resurrection is about the hero of the 3rd movie being cloned and them pulling an Alien out of her. Alien vs. Predator is about Aliens fighting Predators, could have been good, but they messed up big and it sucked. I remember watching the first one when I was little, it scared the hell out of me and I was afraid to watch it for another 2 years. Good movies to watch on something like Halloween. Sam brought me Stress Balls, and I had them out all day. It was great, I asked people if they wanted to rub my balls. Melanie played with one of my balls... Saying that the lyrics to my 'currently listening to' box are in Latin, I'll leave you with another song I've been listening to today. It is by Megadeth, and it is called Tears in a Vial. This may seem all too confusing How I could walk away from something so rare But you see it got too demanding, yeah And I just didn't care, I just didn't care, if I cared, if I cared Lately, I've been left wanting, but not wanting you Attraction that once was is no longer there, ooh And it sucks to be taken for granted When the veil is drawn so there is only air I had to walk away Give up something I love For what I loved even more And save my tears for you Everything has lost its meaning; I had to let it go To find myself, myself, and start something new, brand new Forced to look deep in the mirror, face who I really am Now its just me, cause I can't afford you I had to walk away Give up something I love For what I loved even more And save my tears for you I gave up something I love For what I loved even more And save my tears for you In a vial and walked away You were so beautiful to look upon I could see the light in your smile Your eyes were the windows into your soul Your body was heavenly just like the sky Until all your good looks betrayed you, which wasn't much Counted on your counterfeit smiles for too long Your eyes are empty windows, broken The body may be here but the soul is gone I saved my tears in a vial From everything wicked that you did, that you said To send away, buried with your love So many tears in a vial, now that you're gone, and now that you're dead Ok goodnight everyone, hope all your problems are solved. Current Mood: OMG ADVENT CHILDREN Current Music: One Winged Angel//OMG ADVENT CHILDREN (2 added to the heavens |add stars)
Thursday, January 5th, 2006
8:23 pm	Back from surgery and hating life.. The Surgery Day Hello everyone, SURGERY SUCKED. And honesty it's not as bad as it sounds. The worst part about the surgery part of it is the needles. They pump you full of tranquilizers and you're out cold in a couple of seconds. It's pretty cool. You can feel your heart slow down and your limbs get weaker. I held my arm up as long as I could but when I couldn't, I couldn't even slow it's drop. The nurse just laughed. I woke up a couple times before surgery was over. One time I woke up and the dentist looked at me with his eyes really wide open. He pulled the saw out fast and then told me I shouldn't be up yet. lol. I looked at the saw and said, I guess not. He goes I'll fix that in a couple seconds. He pumped me full of tranquilizers again. lol. When I woke up to leave, my legs didn't work. Everyone says I was hallucinating, but I tell you, I was in my right mind. My mom saw me and I just said hi mom, and tried to stand and she caught me before my face hit the floor. My dad carried me out and into the house when we got back. I was out for most of the day afterwards. They gave me a steroid, an anti-biotic, a pain reliever, and a pain killer. Well, let's just say I don't take the pain killer anymore. It's just as strong as the ones I took when I broke my shoulder blade. Saying I wasn't in as much pain, they made me nauseaus. When I figured out it was the pain killers doing it, I just didn't take them anymore. Now I have to take all these other pills. It says I don't have to take the pain killers, which is a plus. I hate that nauseaus feeling. I hope I never experience that again. Day 1 OMFG MY FACE!! I LOOK LIKE A FREAKIN BABOON!! MY FACE HAS SWOLEN UP LIKE A F***ING BALOON! Supposably the steroids are supposed to help and this specially made ice-pack is too, but it makes me look retarded and it doesn't help, so I never used it. My mom took a picture of me and the face... DAMNIT. That day sucked. And then I had my first girlfriend come over and spend the night. NOTHING BAD HAPPENED, besides who would want a baboon faced guy like me... I was corrected about the first girlfriend thing. I showed everyone pictures of my 2nd and 3rd girlfriends during the parties. My first girlfriend was Amber Hobbs. She got her tounge pierced too. lol. It was fun with her over. Today MY FACE IS STILL ITS SAME SIZE, WTF!! THESE STEROIDS TASTE LIKE FUCKING CHALK, DON'T ASK HOW I KNOW! Ok, I'm bored out of my mind, and I want to talk to Kenzi. Although my face is the size of a watermellon, I can still talk normal, weird eh? Anyways. Off the subject of the FUCKING SURGERY! I got more blacklights installed, so now I have enough light so that it doesn't cause headaches. I bought a Pearl Jam cd with the song Even Flow on it. That is now my favorite song by that band. ITS AWESOME. My sister got DDR extreme 2 so now I can do all those hard songs we did at Ashton's party. I fell when I tried it yesterday, my hair got in my face and when I tried to get it out of the way, I lost balance and fell backwards. Anyways, I'm off to call Kenzi. OH if my face still looks like this by monday, I WONT GO TO SCHOOL! THIS IS FUCKING DISGUSTING! Since I do this all the time. I leave you with lyrics. EVEN FLOW!! Ash hates this band, but I LOVE IT SO LIVE WITH IT!! Freezin', rests his head on a pillow made of concrete, again Oh, Feelin' maybe he'll see a little better, set a days, ooh yeah Oh, hand out, faces that he sees time again ain't that familiar, oh yeah Oh, dark grin, he can't help, when he's happy looks insane, oh yeah Even flow, thoughts arrive like butterflies Oh, he don't know, so he chases them away Someday yet, he'll begin his life again Life again, life again... Kneelin', looking through the paper though he doesn't know to read, ooh yeah Oh, prayin', now to something that has never showed him anything Oh, feelin', understands the weather of the winters on its way Oh, ceilings, few and far between all the legal halls of shame, yeah Even flow, thoughts arrive like butterflies Oh, he don't know, so he chases them away Someday yet, he'll begin his life again Whispering hands, gently lead him away Him away, him away... Yeah! Woo...ah yeah...fuck it up... Even flow, thoughts arrive like butterflies Oh, he don't know, so he chases them away Someday yet, he'll begin his life again, yeah Oh, whispering hands, gently lead him away Him away, him away... Yeah! Goodnight everyone, Hope all your problems are solved. send good vibes my way, I want to go back to school and see you guys again. Current Mood: way too busy to be cripple lol Current Music: Even Flow//Pearl Jam (3 added to the heavens |add stars)
Saturday, December 31st, 2005
10:15 pm	*Yawn* New Year's is boring... Hello everyone, welcome back to my 'happy place'. My day just keeps getting better and better... Well I called everyone to see if they wanted to come with me to the mall for a couple of hours. EVERYONE. Most never answered the phone, those who did couldn't make it. Don't worry about it. By the time we got to the mall, it was closed. Yes, they closed at 5... IT SUCKED. My mom offered to take us somewhere else. I have a gift cirtificate at the mall, nowhere else. Oh, well. So I wasted about 3 hours on that whole ordeal. At least I got to talk to some people, which doesn't happen very often. Well I just found out I have to get my fucking wisdom teeth removed Tuesday... WTF. OMFG. A little heads up would have been nice. Damnit... This sucks. wow. I'm out of mints... Anyways. I have this idea about a little get together. Underworld 2 is coming out. For those of you who haven't seen it, it's about vampires and werewolves (likens). I planned on having everyone come over and watching the first one, which we own, then all go out to see the second one. Just an idea. I haven't even talked to my mom about it yet, and there is a slight problem with transportation, too many people. So may not even happen, but I thought it would be cool. No one is online tonight. Hannah got on for a second, but her cousin wouldn't allow her to type... THIS BASTARD WON'T STOP GETTING ON MY AIM PROFILE AND IT'S PISSING ME OFF. OMFG. I know the guy from Starcraft. He hacked my Starcraft profile and found my e-mail address. He then hacked into my AIM profile. What an ass. I guess that's what I get for pissing off the wrong people. His fault though. He decided to hack a game, so I decided to have his account banned, is that so bad? There is a very strict rule against people who hack games. I have friends in high places, so I got his account banned. I even warned him that if he did it again and was reported, I would have it removed. Well the next night someone informed me. Should have listened to me. He didn't take it very well. He told me he would do this, although I didn't think it was possible. Boy, he proved me wrong... When I got on tonight it told me someone else was logged in. We talked for about 5 minutes before he got off. I was pissed. He challenged me to a game on Starcraft... What a loser. I told him I couldn't cause my computer lags too bad. He actually believed me and said that would explain why I haven't been on in the last month. He didn't say anything about stopping. Oh fucking well. If you can't tell, I'm not in the best of moods. I haven't been getting a whole lot of sleep either, too much to think about. If the insomnia hits me again, I'm never going to be in a good mood. I went through a insomnia thing all through 6th-9th grade. I got maybe 3 hours of sleep a night. When I started going out with Hannah I was on a drug because I had broken my shoulder blade and it had a small side effect, INSOMNIA, so I got even less sleep. After I got off the drugs, I slept perfectly fine. Heck, one day I even got a full 24 hours of sleep. That was interesting. For a while all that was on my mind was Hannah, so I still went to sleep pretty fast. Then we broke up... I became an insomniac again. That lasted until I started going out with Kenzi. Again, all that was on my mind was Kenzi. She broke up with me... I still slept well though. Until just recently when I started having my female dilema insomnia kicked in again. Well I'm going out with Kenzi so I would have thought I would get the sleep I needed, I don't. Too much on my mind, way too much. Last night I got 5 hours of sleep. Shit... Well, I have popcorn and intent to stay up till 12 at least. I like to watch the balls drop all over the world. lol. Well, here are some lyrics to a fitting Megadeth song called Insomnia!! It used to be my favorite by them. It still is one of my favorites. It's not your usual Megadeth, it's not that heavy, and it even has Dave Mustaine (lead guitar and vocals) switching back and forth between guitar and violin, VIOLIN wtf! Awesome song. I'm running in quicksand something's haunting me the guilty past I've buried my mind won't let me sleep I'll do anything for peace - I keep waking up a solemn oath I make cross my heart please let me sleep - I keep waking up how much more do I take My head is talking to me I don't know what it needs but the loudest voice is the one I heed Insomnia, my swollen bloodshot eyes Insomnia, awake till morning light Insomnia, stirring deep inside Insomnia, somebody turn out the lights I can't sleep - insomnia I'm twisting and turning - I keep waking up the madness I must tame my candle is burning - I keep waking up both ends again today The whole house is creaking I know they're out there the things kept from sight I beg to the shadows I can't sleep Insomnia, footsteps on the walk Insomnia, I hear someone knock Insomnia, I wish it was a dream Insomnia, can you hear me scream Good song. Goodnight everyone, happy New Year's. Hope all your problems are solved. Current Mood: F... Current Music: Megadeth// Insomnia (add stars)
Friday, December 30th, 2005
10:02 pm	Today sucked... It did, I did nothing I wanted to the entire day. As soon as I woke up my dad asked me if I wanted to go on an 'expedition'. I was like, Wtf are you talking about. He wanted me to go arrowhead hunting... OMFG, 5 hours wandering around staring at the ground looking for arrowheads is not fun. So I told him I didn't want to. Eventually he made me feel guilty about it and I finally agreed. We found nothing at all except mud, barbed wire, and a terrible crick in my neck. We got home around 5. I immediately went and got some advil, grabbed the phone, and went to my room and turned on the music. I talked to Kenzi for about 5 minutes before her phone had no signal and she had to go. I called Erika and talked to her for a good hour and a half. She is very upset with my decision, but she doesn't hate me completely so that's always a plus. I've still got a lovely little headache... That people, is pretty much my day. And I now leave you Megadeth, enjoy Megadeth, Sweating Bullets. Hello me ... Meet the real me And my misfits way of life A dark black past is my Most valued possessions Hindsight is always 20-20 But looking back it's still a bit fuzzy You speak of mutually assured destruction? Nice story ... Tell it to Reader's Digest !!! Feeling paranoid True enemy or false friend? Anxiety's attacking me, and My air is getting thin I'm in trouble for the things I haven't got to yet I'm chomping at the bit and my Palms are getting wet, sweating bullets Hello me ... It's me again You can subdue, but never tame me It gives me a migraine headache Thinking down to your level Yea, just keep on thinking it's my fault And stay an inch or two outta kicking distance Mankind has got to know His limitations Feeling claustrophobic Like the walls are closing in Blood stains on my hands and I don't know where I've been I'm in trouble for the things I haven't got to yet I'm sharpening the axe, and my Palms are getting wet, sweating bullets Well, me ... It's nice talking to myself A credit to dementia Some day you too will know my pain And smile its blacktooth grin If the war inside my head Won't take a day off I'll be dead My icy fingers claw your back Here I come again Feeling paranoid True enemy or false friend? Anxiety's attacking me, and And my air is getting thin Feeling claustrophobic Like the walls are closing in Blood stains on my hands and I don't know where I've been Once you committed me Now you've acquited me Claiming validity For your stupidity I'm chomping at the bit I'm sharpening the axe Here I come again, whoa! Sweating bullets Alright people goodnight hope all your problems are solved. Oh and everyone will probably recieve e-mails from me so look for them. Current Mood: sucky Current Music: Sweating Bullets//Megadeth (1 added to the heavens |add stars)
Tuesday, December 27th, 2005
11:16 pm	I think the blacklights need to go... omg... I think the blacklights caused it, but I have a splitting headache now and have had it for the last 2 hours... I figured I have enough light during the day if I open up my blinds, and at night I can just have the blacklights on. It's not that dark, but obviously it did wonders to my head... This is unbearable. My sister bought a blacklight cause she thought it was a cool idea and finally admits to being gothic. Her's broke when her ball and chain (yes a freakin medieval weapon meant to split a skull open) fell on it and shattered it all over her, scared the hell out of me. I got a game called Age of Mythology for Christmas. It's just like Age of Empires, except with mythological units and stuff. Pretty fun, but very annoying. On Starcraft, if you make a decently sized army, you will destroy everything. On this if you make soldiers all the way to your limit and attack, you will get slaughtered... WTF? And this is on easy... WTF? Still a good game though. I haven't talked to Erika since last night, but somehow I know she already knows. I'm afraid to call and talk to her. All day my sister gave me bad looks, she thinks I'm a bad person. I don't know what to do anymore, and right now it hurts to think about it. My sister is going to her boyfriend's Friday, he lives a little past Birmingham (they met online) so my mom is taking her. This means I shall be at my house alone for about 8 hours. Good and bad. I like that I'll have some time to myself, but I'm going to be bored and lonely. No Kenzi either cause she is going on a church trip to Gatlinburg. Damn... System of a Down is not helping this headache of mine.... thought I might share a picture of Sephiroth with you guys in case you didn't know where my name came from. He is called the angel of death and that's what they used to call me on Starcraft. So cool... Anyways. I've had absolutely nothing to do all day. I'm not joking, if I wasn't sleeping, I was online typing this. I have drank 5 Mello Yellos today, I'm always thirsty for them now. And they don't give me a sugar or caffeine boost anymore. Weird eh? Come on guys update your Ljs and give me something to do. lol. Alright, I'm out, sleep sounds good and it's late anyways. As always, I shall leave you with lyrics for a song that fits the mood a bit. This time it's Ozzy when he was with Black Sabbath doing the song N.I.B. (Nativity in Black) Some people say my love cannot be true Please believe me my love and I'll show you I will give you those things you thought unreal The sun the moon the stars all bear my seal Follow me now and you will not regret Leaving the life you led before we met You are the first to have this love of mine Forever with me 'till the end of time Your love for me has just got to be real Before you know the way I'm going to feel I'm going to feel I'm going to feel Now I have you with me under my power Our love grows stronger now with every hour Look into my eyes you'll see who I am My name is Lucifer please take my hand Follow me now and you will not regret Leaving the life you led before we met You are the first to have this love of mine Forever with me 'till the end of time Your love for me has just got to be real Before you know the way I'm going to feel I'm going to feel I'm going to feel Now I have you with me under my power Our love grows stronger now with every hour Look into my eyes you'll see who I am My name is Lucifer please take my hand If you couldn't figure out, the song is about Lucifer in love. Creepy eh? lol. Goodnight all, talk to you sometime or another, and I hope all of your problems are solved. Current Mood: Shit... Current Music: Black Sabbath(Ozzy)//N.I.B. (add stars)
Monday, December 26th, 2005
8:40 pm	Hmm... what a day... Hello all, I hope everyone had an excellent Christmas. From what I've read on the LJs so far, it sounds like it. I had a pretty good Christmas and got some pretty cool stuff. I finally have a cell phone, and not only do I have a cell phone, I have 2 cell phones. I shit you not, 2 cell phones. Both Nokia, both active, and both are freakin awesome. I also recieved an MP3 player, a coffin case for my guitar, 350 dollars worth of gift cirtificates, and some awesome CDs. This is definitely the best Christmas so far. I LOVE PINK FLOYD THE WALL!! Awesome music. I went to AllStar Comics today with Kenzi and built her a lovely little deck of cards. We met up with Jonesey and Zach there and also got to see Cory Gott, Justin Goldsmith, and Colton Dunevant. We then ate at Fortune Garden which is a good Chinese restraunt in the same place as the Food World used to be. Then we went to Wal-Mart and because Wolly World can be boring if you spen too much time in it, Kenzi and me went to the car and waited for Mom and Nicole. We did nothing naughty, honest. Although something interesting did take place. For those of you curious about my last entry and my female dilema, I asked Kenzi out while we were in the car. Sorry Erika, I'm really really sorry. I'm happy with my choice but I can't shake this aweful feeling about Erika now... I hope she won't hate me. I hooked up some black lights in my room. When I wake up I just open the blinds and let in all the light I need, at night I turn on the black lights and my room seems to glow. I love it. Gah, I've tried to tell Erika that I can't go out with her, but it just isnt working out very well. She doesn't understand, and I hope this isn't too much for her. To switch the topic, I finally know how to play Paranoid by Black Sabbath on my bass. Speaking of musical instruments my grandparents gave me a harmonica and a book to teach me how to play... HARMONICA!? WTF?! Well I've run out of things to speak of, so I shall leave you now with the lyrics of Pink Floyd! Ok, you need to get a few songs to get the whole thing so here they are listed. 1.Another Brick in the Wall Pt.1 2.The Happiest Days of our Lives 3.Another Brick in the Wall Pt.2 4.Another Brick in the Wall Pt.3 5.Goodbye Cruel World *Daddys flown across the ocean leaving just a memory A snap shot in the family album Daddy what else did you leave for me Daddy what d'ya leave behind for me All in all it was just a brick in the wall All in all it was all just bricks in the wall *"You! Yes, you! Stand still laddy!" When we grew up and went to school There were certain teachers who would Hurt the children anyway they could By pouring the derision Upon anything we did And exposing every weakness However carefully hidden by the kids But in the town it was well known When they got home at night their fat and Psychopathic wives would thrash them Within inches of their lives *We don't need no education we don't need no thought control No dark sarcasm in the classroom Teachers leave them kids alone Hey! Teachers! Leave them kids alone! All in all it's just another brick in the wall All in all your're just another brick in the wall We don't need no education we don't need no thought control No dark sarcasm in the classroom Teachers leave them kids alone Hey! Teachers! Leave them kids alone! All in all it's just another brick in the wall All in all your're just another brick in the wall "Wrong, Do it again!" "If you don't eat yer meat, you can't have any pudding. How can you have any pudding if you don't eat yer meat?" "You! Yes, you behind the bikesheds, stand still laddy!" *I don't need no arms around me And I don't need no drugs to calm me. I have seen the writing on the wall Don't think I need anything at all. No! Don't think I'll need anything at all All in all it was all just bricks i nthe wall. All in all you were all just bricks in the wall. *Goodbye cruel world, I'm leaving you today Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye Goodbye, all you people, There's nothing you can say To make me change my mind Goodbye Alright, thanks for reading, I'll see you all sometime or another. Goodnight, Sleep well, And hope all your problems are solved. Current Mood: F... Current Music: Pink Floyd//Another Brick in the Wall Pt.2 (add stars)
Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
11:27 pm	oops... *scratches head* I forgot about this thing... MY BAD! Actually I have been reminded a couple times, but this is the first time in about a month that I have been online for more than 2 minutes. THERE IS NO ONE ON TO TALK TO! *sigh* Erika got me sick about a week ago and I still feel a little out of it now. I was watching Hell Raiser (has Pinhead in it), and he used the words 'All problems solved' and I have been using those words a lot. Weird eh? btw, those are creepy horror movies for those of you curious now. I bought everyones Christmas present, except Donna's... Sorry Donna, it ain't going to happen any time soon. I do promise to get you one by the end of the school year though. Only a couple more days until Christmas. Saturday my family on my dad's side is coming over, Sunday (Christmas) I get to travel to my grandma's house on my mom's side of the family. Why the hell can't we stay home for Christmas? I love to see my grandparents, but the fact they live out in Scottsboro kind of throws it off... Whatever though. My sister had her boyfriend come over along with one of his friends. His name is Carlton and his friend's name is Michael. Carlton gave my sister a shirt that said: Roses are Red Violets are Blue All of my base Are belong to you ... For those of you that don't get it, it is from an old game that was mistranslated. It is a revered statement by all nerds. (the game sucked...) Somebody set us up the bomb All your base are belong to us What you say!? its pretty... umm dumb? She also got Shadow of the Colossus. KICK ASS GAME. I beat it before Nicole got half-way through it. You and your horse against a stone and flesh monster. Some of these monsters can be well over 100 ft tall. Pretty much you climb the thing, and stab it in the right spot to kill it. There are 16 Colossi, and some of them were near impossible to beat. Once you beat it you can go back through and pick a battle you liked and replay it. So I get to fight my favorited Colossi as many times as I want. It's Legend of Zelda and Kingdom Hearts put into 1 game. Loved it, and still play it. Okay, I'm guessing most of you expected me to talk about my current 'situation' with Kenzi and Erika. I've pretty much made up my mind, but it's one of the hardest things I have ever tried to do to try and tell her I can't be with her. It's going to break her heart and really hurt me. I hope she understands, and maybe someday we can go out, but it can't be now. And I hope to God that she won't hate me and we can still be friends. As always here are the lyrics to the song I'm listening to. One of my favorites that the band does. Pink Floyd//Money Money, get away Get a good job with more pay and you're ok Money it's a gas Grab that cash with both hands and make a stash New car, caviar, four star daydream Think I'll buy me a football team Money get back I'm all right jack keep your hands off of my stack Money it's a hit But don't give me that do goody good bullshit I'm in the hi-fidelity first class traveling set And I think I need a Lear jet Money it's a crime Share it fairly but don't take a slice of my pie Money so they say Is the root of all evil today But if you ask far a rise it's no suprise that they're giving none away. Alright everyone, goodnight, sleep well and hope all your problems are solved. Current Mood: shit.... Current Music: Pink Floyd/Money (2 added to the heavens |add stars)
Friday, December 2nd, 2005
8:52 pm	Party?? Party!? Party!! WTF PARTY!! In less than 24 hours, I will be in a limo with my friends, cruising around Huntsville, having some of the best fun I shall ever experience. For sure we are going to the mall, if the fret shop is open we are going there, somewhere to eat (probably Pizza Hut), and anywhere else we can think of. Yesterday was my birthday, and a good one it was. I recieved many more gifts than I expected. I gots 2 shirts (one with a guitar and one with some saying on it, but its an XL and I wear a L... ARE YOU CALLING ME FAT!?), a hoody with the prism from Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon, a distortion pedal for my bass guitar, STAR WARS BATTLEFRONT 2 (w00ts!!), Hypnotize by System of a Down, and a sword the man called an 'Odachi' which he said translated into 'Horse Killer'. The sword is about an inch shorter than me, making it around 70 inches long. THAT IS REALLY FREAKIN BIG. It is near impossible to pull out of its sheath while holding it cause its so freakin long. If I could get the overcoat, black pants, and the awesome hair I COULD BECOME SEPHIROTH!! lol. I tried pulling it out and it hit the ceiling of our house when I did. It was great. BANANA BANANA BANANA BANANA TERRICOTA BANANA TERRICOTA TERRICOTA PIE!! That song is great. lol, speaking of bananas. ITS PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME!! LOL. Gah, my computer is working slow, I can barely do anything. Starcraft won't work right, which I haven't been on for a while and when I did get on I was swamped by messages and found out I was way behind on games to play. I can't look up lyrics for the song I'm listening to cause my AOL will shutdown. It takes way to long to open anything. So I'm stuck on STUPID LIVEJOURNAL!! lol. I'm joking, I love this thing and I was grounded for a while so I couldn't update. Sorry! I'm learning Paranoid by Black Sabbath on my bass. The begining is the hardest just because of how fast it is and the scrolling down of the fingers, but I'm working on it. I'M GETTING LONELY. I find myself flirting with girls I barely know... Kenzi is driving me insane with her flirting. lol. If I wanted to go out with Erika, you will be the first to know. Dawn mentioned to me in a conversation that a girl named Megan at tech school wanted to know who I liked now-a-days. A MEGAN!! I WENT OUT WITH A MEGAN!! SHE WAS SO COOL, AND I MISS HER SO MUCH!! I asked Dawn if she would find out if it was the same Megan. *Sigh* It wasn't... It was heartbreaking... But, it does bring up a question, how does she know me? Makes you wonder... We have a new chick who lives down the street from me. She looks older but is only in the 7th grade. Her name is Cassandra. I like that name, it's an awesome name.If I have time Squirrel and I shall go and speak with her for the fun of it cause she is a cool person. I made a map for Dawn on Starcraft. It let her become all the races, gave her a good headstart, had her against all the races, and had me as an observer. It is a brilliant way to teach her everything she needs to know, WHICH IS WAY TOO MUCH. My dad is forcing me to watch a movie he thinks is good, and giving his commentary on it too... Lovely... Ok people, I'm done with this lovely little entry. As always here is a nice little song for you to have the lyrics to and give off hints to my mood. Todays song shall be Hypnotize by System of a Down. ---S.O.A.D. Hypnotize--- Why don't you ask the kids at Tiananmen Square Was Fashion the reason why they were there They disguise it hypnotize it Television made you buy it I'm just sitting in my car And waiting for my She's scared that I will take her away from there Her dreams and her country left with no one there Mezmerize the simple minded Propaganda leaves us blinded I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my girl I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my girl I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my girl I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my girl I like the way that song sounds too. Ok goodnight all, hope to see you guys soon. THANK YOU, AND GOODNIGHT!! Current Mood: on the lonely/flirty side Current Music: System of a Down/Hypnotize (add stars)
Saturday, November 12th, 2005
8:29 pm	... HOW DOES ONE GET SICK FROM DUST!? OK THIS IS FREAKIN RETARDED... I had to help my grandparents move into their new house yesterday and today. We spent about an hour loading stuff from storage. I went in and helped them move some stuff so we could get to a dresser. The air was hot and hard to breathe, and it stunk rotten (we found about 4 dead rats the size of my foot). I had to get out of there fast, I couldn't take it. My whole head just felt terrible afterwards and still does. I know it's just sinuses from all that ancient dust, but it really sucks. I spent my days loading boxes, unloading boxes, tearing open boxes, and loading the empty ones back on the truck. Then my grandparents had some friends over for dinner... I WAS SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE I DIDN'T KNOW AND NONE OF THEM WERE BELOW THE AGE OF 60!! I usually don't mind 'elders' too much, but I had my bass out while they were there and they asked me to play something... I don't know anything they listened to, thank goodness my grandma wasn't completely lost when I played some Nirvana. I just got out of the shower, I needed one. I hadn't taken a showere since school... I STANK (I could litterally smell myself)! I broke my nose out of place last night when I was sleeping on a cot (yes a millitary cot...). It broke while I was sleeping on it and I landed on my nose, hard. IT REALLY HURT AND IT HURT EVEN MORE WHEN I PUT IT BACK IN PLACE! I LEFT MY BINDER WITH ALL MY SCHOOL STUFF AND 'BOOK' STUFF AND DRAWINGS AND PAPER AND IMPORTANT NOTES IN IT (In short I JUST LOST EVERYTHING) OMG I'M FURIOUS!! I had to ride home with those old people too... I am so bored... no one is online now, so I have no one to talk to while I type this... AH HELL I JUST REALIZED MY BASS TABS WERE IN THE BINDER TOO!! DAMMIT!! AHHHH!!! THIS SUCKS gah, I need an advil... and a mello yello would be nice too. I have already had several people ask what I want for my birthday, I am in need of some cash... For several things, especially Christmas. Another is I'm putting in my own money for the party (movies, limo, and the food). I have this awesome song on media player, but it also has a video attachment. It is Linkin Park's Numb with Final Fantasy 8 videos. SO FREAKIN COOL. I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless lost under the surface Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me Holding too tightly afraid to lose control Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you And I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me with someone disappointed in you I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you I've become so numb I can't feel you there I'm tired of being what you want me to be I've become so numb I can't feel you there I'm tired of being what you want me to be Heh, good song too. Goodnight everyone, sleep well, see you all Monday. I hope... Current Mood: OMG CRANKY Current Music: Linkin Park/Numb (with a cool movie) (add stars)
Thursday, November 10th, 2005
9:07 pm	why me?... I have several things to put in here fast cause I need to get off soon (I have to wake up at 6 just like a normal school day so I can help my grandparents move out...). My life seems to be falling apart around me, AND MY FREAKIN NOSE HURTS!! speaking of that, I was hit in the nose 4 times today... 4 TIMES!! 3 times as far as I know were accidents, 1 was purposely (YES I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU KENZIE). Ashton was randomly grabbing peoples noses, I thought she was just making fun of my nose, SHE GRABBED IT AND SHOOK IT! She forgot it was broken, so I forgave her. Kenzie saw that and remembered to, so she slapped it... Then this one chick in my P.E. class grabbed it cause she didn't believe me. And the final time was by Kenzie again, but this time it was accidental. She slipped and fell on her butt and when she jumped up she punched my nose. My nose has bled a grand total of 6 times today. Ok, enough about my nose, next topic. A couple days ago, a certain Mexican, I won't mention any names... JOSH EVANS, tried to start a fight with me. He has just made a big mistake, I was the closest thing he had to a friend in our little 'group' and he goes and tries to start something. If he makes one more mistake, I'm going to kick his sorry ass (besides I've already been told I should by 7 people so far). It makes me a bit upset that we were such good friends, and then he goes and makes a damn fool of himself. IF YOU'RE READING THIS JOSH, YOU PULL ANOTHER STUNT LIKE THAT AGAIN AND I WILL KICK YOUR ASS WITHOUT HESITATION. Sorry everyone if I seem depressed at school, I don't mean to be, but things aren't going real well for me lately, at all. This is a good song, it really is. It's not very often Metallica does a 'slow, depressed' song. I'll write the lyrics at the end of the entry. School was fairly boring today. Teachers didn't make us do much, and we did nothing in P.E. (not that we do anything in that class anyways). I seem to be making more and more 'goth' friends, NOT THAT I'M COMPLAINING AT ALL, YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME! I just felt like mentioning it because I find it interesting. I got into an argument with my dad... It was about the most stupid thing ever too. We were arguing about a Black Sabbath song called War Pigs. He was listening to it and got interested when it played something he had never heard before. I told him it was on the original but that it was edited a bit. For some odd reason he wouldn't accept that. It ended up getting very loud. If you haven't heard me yell, you don't want to. I think the only people besides my family that have heard me yell, are Josh and a friend of mine that goes to Athens now named Patrick. Let's just say, I can yell louder than my dad, which is very impressive. I'm not going to write how the argument ended because it scared me a bit. I didn't think I could stand up to him the way I did... On a more nerdish note, My mom rented Star Wars Battlefronts 2 for me!! BUT GUESS WHAT!! IT'S ALREADY RUINED BY THE PRICKS WHO HAD RENTED IT BEFORE US!! IT WON'T READ ON THE PLAYSTATION AND IT TICKS ME OFF TO NO EXTENT!! GAH! Sigh, GOOSFRABA!! Oh ya, my sister broke our wireless controller for the PS2 which makes me mad also, now I can't change a song from the kitchen table anymore... Guess you could call that just being lazy though. FYI, I can't write comments on Livejournal... It says it can't validate my e-mail address, so I'm not even going to try and fix it. My mom has a limo rented for my birthday!! SO FREAKIN COOL, the plan is to go to the movies in the limo (not sure what to go and see), then go back to my house and spend the rest of the day hanging around playing DDR or doing something to entertain the crowds. This is the first good thing that has happened this week. I punched a brick wall... Everyone says, if you hit hard enough, it relieves stress and lets out anger. IT DOESN'T WORK. I held nothing back and I'll tell you this, I was more stressed and was extrememly pissed because it hurt a whole lot. I tore the skin right off the knuckle... I feel dumb about that too. I LEARNED HOW TO PLAY PARANOID (by Ozzy/Black Sabbath) ON THE BASS!! Hannah, I don't know if you even read my Livejournal. If you do and you are reading this, I'm sorry about the way I acted the other day. I was in a terrible mood and it didn't help that you were acting the way you were (I still need you to answer my question...). Not sure if this little message will change anything at all, I hope it does though. AND FOR YOU PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENED, UNLESS HANNAH TELLS YOU DON'T BOTHER ASKING ME, I'M NOT SAYING ANYTHING, IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. lol. _-=* Now for Nothing Else Matters by Metallica *=-_ So close no matter how far Couldn't be much more from the heart Forever trusting who we are And nothing else matters Never opened myself this way Life is ours, we live it our way All these words I don't just say And nothing else matters Trust I seek and I find in you Every day for us something new Open mind for a different view And nothing else matters Never cared for what they do Never cared for what they know But I know So close no matter how far Couldn't be much more from the heart Forever trusting who we are And nothing else matters Never cared for what they do Never cared for what they know But I know Never opened myself this way Life is ours, we live it our way All these words I don't just say Trust I seek and I find in you Every day for us something new Open mind for a different view And nothing else matters Never cared for what they say Never cared for games they play Never cared for what they do Never cared for what they know And I know So close no matter how far Couldn't be much more from the heart Forever trusting who we are No nothing else matters ----Ok, I have run out of things to say... I think I gave you people enough info about my life for today. On one more quck note I have to mention, I just beat 7 people against me on Starcraft, THE HITLER OF STARCRAFT HAS RETURNED, BEWARE BATTLE.NET!! Current Mood: omg depressed.... Current Music: Metallica/Nothing Else Matters (add stars)